[ karkat squints slightly because what.... tf is my chemical romance... and also like. dave you are the one who brought it up this time, shut up. ]

I even admitted that it would take me a while to get used to going public even if we decided on it? Kind of like how you just said you need time to get over your... stuff. So even if I'm not completely okay, over time I might be? It's the same thing you're doing right now so I don't see why it's a problem when it's me and not you?

[ he bites his bottom lip, trying to figure out how to word this in a way that won't bring them into another circle. ]

I just. Don't want you to pretend to be happy for my sake? I don't think I could forgive myself if I let you do something that stupid.