It's not. You two were right? This is easiest. I was just...kind of stupid to want you to like, date me publicly for reasons other than just to make me happy, because honestly I knew that wasn't going to happen. I should have just not brought it up but I did and I can't change it, so.

[ like, karkat wanting to date him publicly just because karkat wanted...to date him publicly...whenever he was ready to do so. karkat would just have never been ready? so he can, like. deal with...this. ]

I can deal with how it makes me feel, but you need to not worry about it making me happy or not? We're apparently both gonna do the not completely okay with what we're doing thing but the alternatives are all pretty much the same so, uh, that's life?