Of fucking course you're going to be upset about something like this then. If I were in your position I would probably be handling it a lot less maturely. The possibility of losing a friend is already the worst, but when you add those kinds of feelings on top of it?? Things will work out though. You can tell that you matter a lot to him.
It takes Yu a few minutes to send a response back, and in that time he presses at an eye with the heel of his palm and tells himself he's fine. ]
I'm nervous. I don't want my feelings to ruin our friendship. He seems comfortable with my sexuality now, but he doesn't know about my feelings. What would I do if he rejected me?
[ This is very, very hard for him to admit. He may only be saying it because this is Karkat, and not anyone else. ]
[ ouch. he gets it, really. it's the reason why he never actually confesses to his crushes, because if he doesn't say anything then he won't get rejected. it's terrible and anya constantly lectures him about it. ]
I guess the question is, how ok are you with never telling him? Because I know some people feel a lot better getting it off their chest even if getting rejected hurts like an itchy bitch. Annnnd I also guess how it affects your relationship with him is dependent on what kind of person he is.
[ Yu would lecture him too if Yu had a single god damn leg to stand on re: crush admitting.
As it is he's just kind of left trying to control his emotions and give a reasonable response. Or ... maybe it's just the response he thinks he has to give. ]
I'm fine with it. I'd rather treasure our friendship than have nothing.
I may be assuming too much to think our friendship would end if I told him... I guess it's just a risk I don't want to take.
You have to actually be fucking fine with it though. Because if this turns out to be some huge regret of yours down the line, I'm going to punch you. I mean, you don't have to go and confess now or anything. Especially since dumping one bombshell after the other like this is probably against the Geneva Convention.
Waiting even a little bit is probably for the best? Especially since right now you're overstimulated as fuck with feelings after everything that happened so whatever you choose to do now is more likely to be fueled by a knee-jerk reaction versus anything remotely logical.
[ karkat would know because he is the king of knee-jerk reactions ]
So at least after you had some time to think it over you'll have a better sense of what the hell you want to do.
Ok so your name is Rebecca Levenson and it's your wedding day. You're getting married to your girlfriends, who you've been dating for just a year before she proposed. Everyone was like, "Rebecca what the FUCK is wrong with you, this is too soon." But you just goddamn know that fucker is your soulmate so you ignored them all. But then she invites her long time ex, Kaitlyn, to the wedding. And you, as Rebecca, are APPALLED. Doesn't she know you hate Kaitlyn? Why the fuck would she invite someone she was in a relationship with for six years to your wedding? And then, the night before, you saw the two of them together. So flash forward back to the wedding day. You just walked down the aisle in your ridiculously expensive dress. You probably should have gotten something cheaper to save expenses but fuck it, it's your day. And you won't let anyone ruin it. You're at the alter, and the priest does whatever it is that priests do at these things, and it's time to do your vows. Your soon-to-be wife does her, and it's very romantic and everyone cried. Then it's your turn. You look at your almost wife, tears, in your eyes, and say, "I saw you hanging out with Kaitlyn yesterday." She's completely shocked. "Rebecca! It's not what you think!" "I won't hesitate, bitch," you answer back, pulling a gun out of your cleavage.
Edited (i noticed a typo? i love you smooch) 2017-05-31 16:03 (UTC)
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Friday, then?
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We'll figure this out.
And even if we don't at least we have each other or whatever blah blah blah.
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Besides, I should tell you what happened when Yosuke and I talked.
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If you're ok with telling me sure.
[ HE WANTS TO KNOW............ a lot......... he's nosy ]
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Actually... he told me he thought you and I were dating. I guess he was upset because he thought I was keeping secrets from him.
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How did he come to that conclusion???
[ karkat..................... ]
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He thought you were protecting me when you didn't mention my name, when you described the date. That was kind of you, by the way. Thanks for trying.
Everything seems to be okay now, but... I still feel strange.
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You still like him right??
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... yes.
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If I were in your position I would probably be handling it a lot less maturely.
The possibility of losing a friend is already the worst, but when you add those kinds of feelings on top of it??
Things will work out though.
You can tell that you matter a lot to him.
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It takes Yu a few minutes to send a response back, and in that time he presses at an eye with the heel of his palm and tells himself he's fine. ]
I'm nervous. I don't want my feelings to ruin our friendship. He seems comfortable with my sexuality now, but he doesn't know about my feelings. What would I do if he rejected me?
[ This is very, very hard for him to admit. He may only be saying it because this is Karkat, and not anyone else. ]
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I guess the question is, how ok are you with never telling him?
Because I know some people feel a lot better getting it off their chest even if getting rejected hurts like an itchy bitch.
Annnnd I also guess how it affects your relationship with him is dependent on what kind of person he is.
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As it is he's just kind of left trying to control his emotions and give a reasonable response. Or ... maybe it's just the response he thinks he has to give. ]
I'm fine with it. I'd rather treasure our friendship than have nothing.
I may be assuming too much to think our friendship would end if I told him... I guess it's just a risk I don't want to take.
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Because if this turns out to be some huge regret of yours down the line, I'm going to punch you.
I mean, you don't have to go and confess now or anything.
Especially since dumping one bombshell after the other like this is probably against the Geneva Convention.
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Are you saying that if I do want to confess, I should just wait and see first? ... I wonder if I'm overthinking all of this.
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Especially since right now you're overstimulated as fuck with feelings after everything that happened so whatever you choose to do now is more likely to be fueled by a knee-jerk reaction versus anything remotely logical.
[ karkat would know because he is the king of knee-jerk reactions ]
So at least after you had some time to think it over you'll have a better sense of what the hell you want to do.
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Don't feel like you're forced to come up with some sort of answer??
Romance is weird as tits.
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I know, though. I think right now I might just need some distance from all of it, to calm down and think it over. Thanks, Karkat. For the advice.
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No problem.
You're my bro so..... I'm glad to help?
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Well, I'm lucky to have a bro like you, then. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ)
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I can do it right now.
(/^▽^)/
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⊂( ・ ̫・)⊃
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You're getting married to your girlfriends, who you've been dating for just a year before she proposed.
Everyone was like, "Rebecca what the FUCK is wrong with you, this is too soon."
But you just goddamn know that fucker is your soulmate so you ignored them all.
But then she invites her long time ex, Kaitlyn, to the wedding.
And you, as Rebecca, are APPALLED.
Doesn't she know you hate Kaitlyn? Why the fuck would she invite someone she was in a relationship with for six years to your wedding?
And then, the night before, you saw the two of them together.
So flash forward back to the wedding day.
You just walked down the aisle in your ridiculously expensive dress. You probably should have gotten something cheaper to save expenses but fuck it, it's your day.
And you won't let anyone ruin it.
You're at the alter, and the priest does whatever it is that priests do at these things, and it's time to do your vows.
Your soon-to-be wife does her, and it's very romantic and everyone cried.
Then it's your turn.
You look at your almost wife, tears, in your eyes, and say, "I saw you hanging out with Kaitlyn yesterday."
She's completely shocked. "Rebecca! It's not what you think!"
"I won't hesitate, bitch," you answer back, pulling a gun out of your cleavage.
i haven't stopped being angry about this for even a second 1/2
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i love you so much