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KARKAT VANTAS

I probably do not give a fuck.

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[covenantal]

It's hard to describe. This morning I just ... knew. Like something I could sense.

I haven't tried it yet, though.

[alienates]

Do you know HOW to try it?
Wait
Do you want someone to be there if/when you make an attempt??

[covenantal]

The answer to both of those questions is maybe.

[alienates]

Do you need me there?
Or your brother or something??

[ karkat does not know the full list of all of yu's friends. one of these days he will actually pay attention to who his friends hang out with. ]

[covenantal]

[ The mention of Souji's name raises a welter of feelings he doesn't know how to deal with. ]

First, I need to find out if Souji has this power too. If he doesn't, I don't want to alarm him.

[ ... ]

All these surprises are getting pretty tiring.

[ He doesn't know how to make himself say that he's scared. ]

[alienates]

Life was easier when all we had to worry about was the SATs.
Hmmm
Ok how would you figure that out without alerting him to something?

[covenantal]

It feels like a long time ago that my biggest concern was getting into college.

I'm not sure. Souji knows me better than anyone. He'll know something is wrong right away if I talk to him. I might try to find out if he's told anyone else about something similar happening to him.

[alienates]

It'll have to be someone you know he'd trust enough, but also someone who probably wouldn't tell him you've been snooping before you can talk to him.
But I guess we can like
Try to figure out what the fuck is going on with you first so that you'll have a better idea of what to look for with him? Or something?

[covenantal]

... I have someone in mind. Though, I'm not positive she wouldn't tell him I asked ...

But I think that's a better place to start. Are you sure, though? This could be risky.

[alienates]

Maybe just REALLY drive the point home that it's something you want to take care of on your own time and that you don't need her interfering in your business aside from this one instance where you are making her interfere.
Only, you know.
In a politer way than I just said I guess.

It'll be fine.
And even if it's not fine, I would prefer that you're not on your own if things turn out that way??

[covenantal]

...... if I phrased it right, that might work.

[ It's Honoka. If he roped her into a conspiracy, she might get really into the whole idea and never say a peep ... ]

That really means a lot to me, you know. Thank you. I won't let you get hurt.

When are you free?

[alienates]

You're a smart dude.
You'll figure it out.

Fridays and weekends are best for me since I don't work then.

[covenantal]

Thanks.

Friday, then?

[alienates]

Friday works.
We'll figure this out.
And even if we don't at least we have each other or whatever blah blah blah.

[covenantal]

Yeah. We do. ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ Thank you, Karkat.

Besides, I should tell you what happened when Yosuke and I talked.

[alienates]

Oh
If you're ok with telling me sure.

[ HE WANTS TO KNOW............ a lot......... he's nosy ]

[covenantal]

Of course I do. You were there, and you've been helping me from the start.

Actually... he told me he thought you and I were dating. I guess he was upset because he thought I was keeping secrets from him.

[alienates]

WHAT
How did he come to that conclusion???

[ karkat..................... ]

[covenantal]

The date we went on, and the fact that we were at prom together... plus, the fact that I hadn't mentioned anything to him about a date.

He thought you were protecting me when you didn't mention my name, when you described the date. That was kind of you, by the way. Thanks for trying.

Everything seems to be okay now, but... I still feel strange.

[alienates]

My relationship with him is basically the two of us trying to lay the bigger shit on each other which is how the date thing came up.

You still like him right??

[covenantal]

Yeah... he explained that. Somehow I couldn't be surprised.

... yes.

[alienates]

Of fucking course you're going to be upset about something like this then.
If I were in your position I would probably be handling it a lot less maturely.
The possibility of losing a friend is already the worst, but when you add those kinds of feelings on top of it??
Things will work out though.
You can tell that you matter a lot to him.

[covenantal]

[ ..........

It takes Yu a few minutes to send a response back, and in that time he presses at an eye with the heel of his palm and tells himself he's fine. ]

I'm nervous. I don't want my feelings to ruin our friendship. He seems comfortable with my sexuality now, but he doesn't know about my feelings. What would I do if he rejected me?

[ This is very, very hard for him to admit. He may only be saying it because this is Karkat, and not anyone else. ]

[alienates]

[ ouch. he gets it, really. it's the reason why he never actually confesses to his crushes, because if he doesn't say anything then he won't get rejected. it's terrible and anya constantly lectures him about it. ]

I guess the question is, how ok are you with never telling him?
Because I know some people feel a lot better getting it off their chest even if getting rejected hurts like an itchy bitch.
Annnnd I also guess how it affects your relationship with him is dependent on what kind of person he is.

[covenantal]

[ Yu would lecture him too if Yu had a single god damn leg to stand on re: crush admitting.

As it is he's just kind of left trying to control his emotions and give a reasonable response. Or ... maybe it's just the response he thinks he has to give. ]

I'm fine with it. I'd rather treasure our friendship than have nothing.

I may be assuming too much to think our friendship would end if I told him... I guess it's just a risk I don't want to take.