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[ okay so, since karkat actually got a regain regarding robot aradia, there is a pause where he just stares at what she wrote. circuitry, to be exact. he has no idea if ami remembers the robot thing or not because she hasn't mentioned it. ]

First of all, that is very early internet.
Second
Circuitry?

[there's a pause on Ami's end, too, though hers lasts a few minutes. she had to go get a drink of water and calm down a bit, once she realized she actually typed that out and sent it.]

s0rry
*sorry
i dont know what that was all about
can i plead temporary insanity on all that stuff i just said

Edited 2017-07-09 19:30 (UTC)

Yeah sure.
I mean that doesn't stop me from being really fucking curious since what the fuck.

Ok Ami, I have a question.
What do you remember about yourself??

[she thinks about this for a moment.]

my name was Aradia
I was a troll but... maybe also a fairy?
my horns were big spirals, like a ram
I had wings apparently
I lived on the trollplanet out in the countryside
in a big grey house with a windmill on top
but at some point it was destroyed
in the game, my class was Maid of Time
in the hemospectrum (whatever that is), I was as low as possible
my screen name was apocalypseArisen
and

I don't really understand what my personality was like
or Aradia's personality
it seems wildly inconsistent
like I remember her being happy and friendly and caring
but what I just remembered a minute ago was her being angry and hopeless
and another time she just
didn't seem to have any feelings at all

it's like the more I remember about her
the less I know who she is

In almost all of the ones I've had involving you, you're like
0_0
And pessimistic as fuck?
Also, you were actually in one of the few memories I have where we're actually interacting in person.
But you were.........
How do I put this.........
A robot.

[Hm. That exchange with Rose certainly suggests... all of the above.]

... I think
you may be right
about all that

but I don't understand it
I'm not like that
I don't want to be like that!
it's not who I am!!

[ karkat isn't sure what to say. it's... weird, having these memories and seeing themselves in them, but at the same time it's... not them? he can be an asshole, but the only times he gets extremely mean is when he's legitimately fighting with someone. but the him he's seen in his memories is... well. he doesn't seem like a nice person? as if he never turns off the asshole button.

but at least his personality seems consistent. ami, though... ]

Of course it isn't.
You're a really short, soon to be freshman who gets excited about shit and dresses like you're competing to be in the next Tim Burton movie.
Whatever the fuck we're seeing is uh
Even if it's our past lives or an alternate reality or WHATEVER shitty nerd genre this falls under, we're still our own people here.
And we'll figure it out somehow.

[her mind jumps to what Naoto said last month, though. what if the shitty nerd genre this falls under is the Matrix? what if it's all a simulation, and everything they know, love, and are is an elaborate digital prank? Ami rejected that theory at the time, and she still does, but the seed of doubt is there...

it'd be awfully pessimistic to bring that up, though. she forces the thought off the front burner, with more effort than it feels like it should take.]

yeah. we will
I mean, we've got to, right?
... but thanks, Karkat

also
I'm not *that* short :p

You are fucking tiny.
I could stack twelve of you on top of each other and you'll reach my shins, probably.
But I will be nice and gracious, and concede that maybe it's more like my knees instead of my shins.
You're welcome.

wow so kind
you better watch yourself mister I will bite your ankles so hard

I will layer my feet with socks.
Good luck biting through six layers of cotton and wool!!

you underestimate my tiny teeth
no sock can stand up to them for long!
(I know this because I put socks in my mouth all the time, apparently)

[no but seriously thanks Karkat, this is cheering her up immensely]

Wow
What the fuck have socks ever done to you huh?
You're probably the reason why we keep losing the other pair.
You eat them and people blame their dryers.