[ luckily, karkat is sarcastic enough to not take it seriously. this is probably the fastest he'll exchange contact details with someone though? it's weird how retrospec streamlines how quickly you become friends with someone.
[ FRIEND... okay, this is not the time to get emotionally constipated over the concept of friendship. ]
Are you new here or something?
[ that or for some reason he keeps hanging out with people not his age??
granted, it took forever for karkat to also get more than three friends his age and he lived here for a couple of years. but cutter seems a lot friendlier than he is. ]
Oh, I'm very good with the dragging and starting them part. It's the keeping it up that's the challenge.
[Cutter is friendly enough and he knows it. It's mostly because he enjoys taking genuine interest in people and flourishes in their company, but once it comes to the part where you'd be basically 'joining their team'....? That's where he balks and runs because he is afraid that they will find that he isn't what they want after all.
It's easier to be remembered for one's good qualities and having drifted away rather than as a let-down, right?]
[ that's... well, he wouldn't say interesting. once karkat makes sure that cutter's contact info has been correctly entered, he repockets his phone, still mulling over what the other teen just said. ]
You just keep doing dumb shit together until suddenly you blink and realize they are an irreplaceable part of your life.
[ the way he says it makes it hard to tell if he's being serious or not. ]
[Damn, now he's gone and admitted it! Looking to the side he laughs sheepishly.]
Haha... Pretty much, yeah. I'm an idiot who easily gets attached, but others might not feel that way and- I'm just kinda scared that they'll look at me and decide they've been wasting their time all along? Something like that.
it's an odd thing to talk about, as karkat's pretty convinced that he's going to end up fucking up his relationships at one point. he can be pretty mean, even without meaning to, so he has to constantly watch himself to make sure he doesn't cross the line and make people realize that they don't want to be his friend. ]
In my experience it takes a lot of fucking work to get someone to stop wanting to talk to you. So unless it turns out you are the ultimate king asshole, you'll probably be fine.
[ he won't say "definitely be fine" because honestly, he can't promise something definite. ]
Heh... Thanks. I'm way more worried that they think that I'm just plain boring rather than an ass, though. My parents raised me to have good manners.
[It's also way easier to understand and theoretically work on the latter while being seen as boring... Being exciting isn't a skill that can be really learned.]
[And there it is, that childish silent begging and hope. He has to gather himself before he manages to brush it off as the casual comment (compliment?) it is.]
I mean. ...You don't know me very well yet, though.
It means we've just met but I think I have a general idea of what you're like, dude. And seriously. I really will say when I want you to stop talking about something. I literally have no problems with doing that.
[Uh. He's got the guy laughing at him, but for once Karkat doesn't seem to be annoyed, so... Is that a victory? Or something? Cutter discards the thought and shakes his head, an insecure but heartfelt little smile taking place on his face.]
Thanks. I think I get you now. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Keeping your emotions bottled up and hidden isn't manly at all.
[ it's definitely a victory, since karkat is usually at least 10% annoyed at all times, even when hanging out with people he genuinely likes. ]
Fuck no. I mean you can probably keep some stuff to yourself since you don't need to tell everyone your business, but I'm pretty big on the whole "complain if you want to complain" thing.
You're not going to give me crap about it too, are ya? I know what it sounds like, but it's got nothing to do with what is considered male or female or whatever at all. It's a way of living.
[Probably way too often, there are things not even no memories of another life can shake.]
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but he'll pull his phone out. ]
If we divorce you'll have to delete it.
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This brings my count of friends my own age I've made in this city to three!
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Are you new here or something?
[ that or for some reason he keeps hanging out with people not his age??
granted, it took forever for karkat to also get more than three friends his age and he lived here for a couple of years. but cutter seems a lot friendlier than he is. ]
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I moved here about nine weeks ago and got dragged right into this retrospec mess.
I'm also... not really that good with this whole making bonds thing. [Yeah.]
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[ most of the people who drags karkat around how obnoxiously friendly and they steamroll him. ]
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[Cutter is friendly enough and he knows it. It's mostly because he enjoys taking genuine interest in people and flourishes in their company, but once it comes to the part where you'd be basically 'joining their team'....? That's where he balks and runs because he is afraid that they will find that he isn't what they want after all.
It's easier to be remembered for one's good qualities and having drifted away rather than as a let-down, right?]
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[ that's... well, he wouldn't say interesting. once karkat makes sure that cutter's contact info has been correctly entered, he repockets his phone, still mulling over what the other teen just said. ]
You just keep doing dumb shit together until suddenly you blink and realize they are an irreplaceable part of your life.
[ the way he says it makes it hard to tell if he's being serious or not. ]
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How'd you-?!
[Damn, now he's gone and admitted it! Looking to the side he laughs sheepishly.]
Haha... Pretty much, yeah. I'm an idiot who easily gets attached, but others might not feel that way and- I'm just kinda scared that they'll look at me and decide they've been wasting their time all along? Something like that.
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it's an odd thing to talk about, as karkat's pretty convinced that he's going to end up fucking up his relationships at one point. he can be pretty mean, even without meaning to, so he has to constantly watch himself to make sure he doesn't cross the line and make people realize that they don't want to be his friend. ]
In my experience it takes a lot of fucking work to get someone to stop wanting to talk to you. So unless it turns out you are the ultimate king asshole, you'll probably be fine.
[ he won't say "definitely be fine" because honestly, he can't promise something definite. ]
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[It's also way easier to understand and theoretically work on the latter while being seen as boring... Being exciting isn't a skill that can be really learned.]
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[ karkat's parents have probably attempted to teach him manners and it did nothing. ]
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[And there it is, that childish silent begging and hope. He has to gather himself before he manages to brush it off as the casual comment (compliment?) it is.]
I mean. ...You don't know me very well yet, though.
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[ it's funny how that happens. all karkat wanted to do was complete his bingo. ]
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[The point.
Cutter's head.]
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he snorts, shaking his head. ]
It means we've just met but I think I have a general idea of what you're like, dude. And seriously. I really will say when I want you to stop talking about something. I literally have no problems with doing that.
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Thanks. I think I get you now. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Keeping your emotions bottled up and hidden isn't manly at all.
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Fuck no. I mean you can probably keep some stuff to yourself since you don't need to tell everyone your business, but I'm pretty big on the whole "complain if you want to complain" thing.
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In either case you're true to your heart and seeking to live without regrets. That's just really manly!
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[ he kind of wishes he kept count of how many times cutter has said that word this entire conversation. ]
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[Probably way too often, there are things not even no memories of another life can shake.]
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[ yeah he doesn't care about the gender thing, he's mostly just wondering if it's a catchphrase or something along those lines. ]
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[He didn't even notice that.]
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[ he watches a lot of movies. ]
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[He hasn't heard anybody else ever speak about manliness like he does. Or did he?]
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[ give him a sec as he tries to think of an example that won't embarrass him. ]
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