hey sorry about the other day i did mean it when i said i wanted to work on our friendship however its true that i havent wanted to talk to you mostly because theres stuff i really cannot handle talking to you about rn and you almost always hone in on those things like a laser guided nuclear missile and bring them up regardless of whether or not ive informed you previously that i cant take talking about the stuff or not can we set ground rules for that if theres anything you dont want to hear me talk about you can add it to the list it wouldnt be just what i cant take if not thats fine and you can ignore this
UH NO. NOT NO TO THE SUGGESTION YOU JUST MADE BUT I DID THAT THING YOU SUGGESTED? I SHOWED LEIJON THE CONVERSATION AND SHE BASICALLY POINTED OUT EVERY SINGLE THING THAT I DID WRONG THERE SO I AM FAIRLY AWARE HOW MUCH OF A REAR END OF A HOOFBEAST I WAS BEING TOWARDS YOU. SO BASICALLY I'M SAYING NO TO YOU APOLOGIZING SINCE IT WAS ME IN THE WRONG THERE AND NOT YOU. BUT GROUND RULES ARE FINE.
right well can you please stop talking to me about when you go off alone on no sleep or texting me when you are off alone on no sleep it always upsets me and i never want to hear about it because i cant actually do anything about it so can you just cool it on that maybe so yeah i always end those conversations real fucking fast because as ive said before i dont want to hear about it
id also appreciate it if you dont talk to me about your quadrants i dont really talk about that shit with friends on the regular and it isnt my business especially when you dont want to give me an exact date on that which im no longer sure i even want to know since any option would be bad anyway and it has nothing to do with me so its kind of a moot point well i guess there are some scenarios in which it would matter but i dont want to ask those questions
the third thing is probably the hardest but like can you maybe dial it back on the insults and the mockery not just for me but for when you talk about people i like to me just like a little bit i know you dont actually mean shit by it but please can you try not to hit the point in a conversation where you tell me how much you hate me and how much i suck or whatever and then have to backtrack it later since we got here ive worked through a lot of shit and i think im maybe at the point in my life where i want to believe dirk and rose are right so i need to ask you to try to stop doing that to me
then my last request is just can you not do the thing where you rant about how much you suck and we stall out while i try to get you to calm down and fail because i want to be there for you but i have failed every time in the last few months to like back you away from that and then we never address any of the issues i try to raise because neither of us is capable of getting around the freakouts so i think maybe i am not the person you should be talking to about that kind of thing because it puts both of us in really bad positions which are unfair on both of us
IT WASN'T THAT I DON'T WANT TO GIVE YOU AN EXACT DATE. IT JUST KIND OF HAPPENED OUT OF NOWHERE AND I WAS SORT OF JUST I WASN'T REALLY PAYING ATTENTION TO DETAILS LIKE THAT. BUT FINE. I WANTED YOU TO HEAR IT FROM ME AND NOT SOMEONE ELSE THOUGH.
lets not talk about it i dont want to know who i could have heard it from and if you honestly cant tell me if this happened before or after we stopped dating or if youre telling me that you karkat vantas do not know when you started dating someone then i really just do not ever want to discuss this ever again basically although having thought about it for a few days it definitely doesnt matter either way so we can drop it
[ dirk, since rin told him. karkat hasn't mentioned it to anyone else besides dave.
he kind of just stares at the text. when they broke up, karkat thought that, okay. they'll get back together in time. but now there's the very real realization that they most likely won't and it's crushing because he was told, by multiple people, that he needs to let go and not suffocate dave if it comes to that. ]
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sorry about the other day
i did mean it when i said i wanted to work on our friendship
however its true that i havent wanted to talk to you mostly because
theres stuff i really cannot handle talking to you about rn
and you almost always hone in on those things like a laser guided nuclear missile and bring them up
regardless of whether or not ive informed you previously that i cant take talking about the stuff or not
can we set ground rules for that
if theres anything you dont want to hear me talk about you can add it to the list
it wouldnt be just what i cant take
if not thats fine and you can ignore this
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NOT NO TO THE SUGGESTION YOU JUST MADE BUT I DID THAT THING YOU SUGGESTED?
I SHOWED LEIJON THE CONVERSATION AND SHE BASICALLY POINTED OUT EVERY SINGLE THING THAT I DID WRONG THERE SO I AM FAIRLY AWARE HOW MUCH OF A REAR END OF A HOOFBEAST I WAS BEING TOWARDS YOU.
SO BASICALLY I'M SAYING NO TO YOU APOLOGIZING SINCE IT WAS ME IN THE WRONG THERE AND NOT YOU.
BUT GROUND RULES ARE FINE.
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well
can you please stop talking to me about when you go off alone on no sleep
or texting me when you are off alone
on no sleep
it always upsets me and i never want to hear about it because i cant actually do anything about it
so can you just
cool it on that maybe
so yeah i always end those conversations real fucking fast because as ive said before
i dont want to hear about it
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i dont really talk about that shit with friends on the regular
and it isnt my business
especially when you dont want to give me an exact date on that
which im no longer sure i even want to know since any option would be bad anyway
and it has nothing to do with me so its kind of a moot point
well i guess there are some scenarios in which it would matter
but i dont want to ask those questions
the third thing is probably the hardest but like
can you maybe dial it back on the insults and the mockery
not just for me but for when you talk about people i like to me
just like a little bit
i know you dont actually mean shit by it
but please
can you try not to hit the point in a conversation where you tell me how much you hate me
and how much i suck or whatever
and then have to backtrack it later
since we got here
ive worked through a lot of shit
and i think im maybe at the point in my life
where i want to believe dirk and rose are right
so i need to ask you to try to stop doing that to me
then my last request is just
can you not do the thing where you rant about how much you suck
and we stall out while i try to get you to calm down and fail
because i want to be there for you but i have failed every time in the last few months to like
back you away from that
and then we never address any of the issues i try to raise because neither of us is capable of getting around the freakouts
so i think maybe
i am not the person you should be talking to about that kind of thing
because it puts both of us in really bad positions
which are unfair on both of us
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IT JUST KIND OF HAPPENED OUT OF NOWHERE AND I WAS SORT OF JUST
I WASN'T REALLY PAYING ATTENTION TO DETAILS LIKE THAT.
BUT FINE. I WANTED YOU TO HEAR IT FROM ME AND NOT SOMEONE ELSE THOUGH.
I'LL STOP.
OK.
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i dont want to know who i could have heard it from
and if you honestly cant tell me if this happened before or after we stopped dating
or if youre telling me that you karkat vantas do not know when you started dating someone
then i really just do not ever want to discuss this ever again
basically
although having thought about it for a few days it definitely doesnt matter either way
so we can drop it
all right
that was it
ill talk to you later
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he kind of just stares at the text. when they broke up, karkat thought that, okay. they'll get back together in time. but now there's the very real realization that they most likely won't and it's crushing because he was told, by multiple people, that he needs to let go and not suffocate dave if it comes to that. ]
ALRIGHT.
BYE.
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and thanks