I'm not really sure yet. I definitely understand the theory, thanks to you, but I'm still working on practical application. [he's not quite understanding the intersection of Feelings Jams, Piles, and why Karkat cried, for example] It -- feels kind of like when I first moved abroad. I'm figuring out another culture's interpersonal rules while I'm already knee-deep in them, probably fucking some up.
[Rin's a huge nerd]
It didn't go so well for me last time, but I'm more prepared this time around. I wouldn't have said yes if I didn't think I could handle it, or that I'd end up hurting you.
[realizing he's Over-Explaining, which he tends to do when he's a little nervous or unsure, he boils it down;]
I'll just be honest and try to make him understand, I guess. And answer his questions.
Like I said, I'm about 91% sure it'll go over fine. I'll make sure he doesn't get the wrong idea.
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And I kind of doubt Makoto even has a least favourite person. I can understand why you guys got a weird vibe, maybe -- he's just not that confrontational.
[Rin doesn't connect to Makoto through competition and aggression, which is -- nice. maybe Makoto doesn't know how to deal with Karkat's overall loud-mouth cranky shit; maybe Makoto's too passive for an active guy like Karkat to fully get. he wonders if maybe it's a case of misunderstanding, between the two of them -- because how could two people Rin likes so much not like one another? unacceptable]
[ yeah karkat is just flat out not going to point out the makoto is jealous thing there. if anyone has the right to tell rin, it's makoto himself? and that would require... stuff...
Yeah. Next door neighbours -- they grew up together, from practically babies. I was the annoying transfer kid, when we were about 10.
[Rin shakes his head, not really sure why -- he feels uncomfortable. probably because the way Makoto and Haru work as friends is still kind of a mystery to him; he also doesn't quite know what Makoto needs. it seems like he's managing better than Rin, but who the hell knows?]
Makoto's different than me. He doesn't -- [cry] -- express what he's feeling, all that much. Plus I think he's more optimistic about what might have happened.
[ yeah karkat can't even begin to guess about this. almost all of his interactions with makoto have at least a hint of hostility in it, even if it's over something dumb like the tv remote. so thinking of the guy being genuinely upset like this is... hard... ]
Maybe he feels better because he has you? [ that's gay ]
I just told you I spent the first couple days sneaking off to stare at the ocean and break down in front of our mutual friends. I don't know how much of a stellar job I'm doing.
[a huff of a sigh, and Rin leans back in the blankets. okay, he's starting to understand the physical aspect of this a little -- it is pretty cozy, sitting in all this fleece and fluff, if he ignores the stupid cover of New Moon near his left hand]
[ it's not that karkat has it out for makoto or that there's really anything in particular that he really dislikes? they just don't get along, and normally that would be completely fine if rin wasn't a factor here. ]
[that startles a snort out of him, followed by some chuckles]
What's your deal with me, then?
[he grins, thinking it's -- kind of funny. he never thought Karkat was anything but a fun person, really; Rin remembers getting into a stupid bet with him on the very first day they met, over something dumb. it's a good memory, and he can't recall thinking Karkat was the mean person he always makes himself out to be]
You are an anomaly that has all three scientists that are on the planet baffled. They are still running tests right now to figure out this mysterious deal.
[ also this is a belated fuck you don't disrespect new moon?? ]
Isn't this pile of stuff supposed to be a sanctified area for friendship, or whatever? I'm reporting you. Who do I report you to? Does the base have an HR?
Unless there has been some drastic changes to how this works, no.
[ granted, as one of the last surviving trolls until they can (hopefully) restart the race, karkat can probably make all the changes he wants?? this is his house now etc ]
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I'm not really sure yet. I definitely understand the theory, thanks to you, but I'm still working on practical application. [he's not quite understanding the intersection of Feelings Jams, Piles, and why Karkat cried, for example] It -- feels kind of like when I first moved abroad. I'm figuring out another culture's interpersonal rules while I'm already knee-deep in them, probably fucking some up.
[Rin's a huge nerd]
It didn't go so well for me last time, but I'm more prepared this time around. I wouldn't have said yes if I didn't think I could handle it, or that I'd end up hurting you.
[realizing he's Over-Explaining, which he tends to do when he's a little nervous or unsure, he boils it down;]
I'll just be honest and try to make him understand, I guess. And answer his questions.
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[ he'll end this if makoto is unhappy? karkat already completely fucked over his relationship and he doesn't want to fuck over rin and makoto's. ]
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And I kind of doubt Makoto even has a least favourite person. I can understand why you guys got a weird vibe, maybe -- he's just not that confrontational.
[Rin doesn't connect to Makoto through competition and aggression, which is -- nice. maybe Makoto doesn't know how to deal with Karkat's overall loud-mouth cranky shit; maybe Makoto's too passive for an active guy like Karkat to fully get. he wonders if maybe it's a case of misunderstanding, between the two of them -- because how could two people Rin likes so much not like one another? unacceptable]
Don't worry so much.
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How's he dealing with the Haru thing?
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Uh. He's -- alright, I guess. I'm not that sure. He's hard to read about stuff like that, most of the time.
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[ karkat did not spend much time with either of them, but he knows that much, at least. and if rin is this emotional over it then... ]
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[Rin shakes his head, not really sure why -- he feels uncomfortable. probably because the way Makoto and Haru work as friends is still kind of a mystery to him; he also doesn't quite know what Makoto needs. it seems like he's managing better than Rin, but who the hell knows?]
Makoto's different than me. He doesn't -- [cry] -- express what he's feeling, all that much. Plus I think he's more optimistic about what might have happened.
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[ yeah karkat can't even begin to guess about this. almost all of his interactions with makoto have at least a hint of hostility in it, even if it's over something dumb like the tv remote. so thinking of the guy being genuinely upset like this is... hard... ]
Maybe he feels better because he has you? [ that's gay ]
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[a huff of a sigh, and Rin leans back in the blankets. okay, he's starting to understand the physical aspect of this a little -- it is pretty cozy, sitting in all this fleece and fluff, if he ignores the stupid cover of New Moon near his left hand]
What's your deal with him, anyway?
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[ it's not that karkat has it out for makoto or that there's really anything in particular that he really dislikes? they just don't get along, and normally that would be completely fine if rin wasn't a factor here. ]
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What's your deal with me, then?
[he grins, thinking it's -- kind of funny. he never thought Karkat was anything but a fun person, really; Rin remembers getting into a stupid bet with him on the very first day they met, over something dumb. it's a good memory, and he can't recall thinking Karkat was the mean person he always makes himself out to be]
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[ also this is a belated fuck you don't disrespect new moon?? ]
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Good luck to them. As an aspiring Olympian, I'm anything but standard.
[he rolls his shoulders, easy and cocky]
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You sure do deserve a gold medal but managing not to barf after saying things like that.
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[yeah, he's flipping open New Moon -- ]
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[spits out a crab claw. blleghh, his tongue feels fuzzy now?? gross]
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[ jacob black did nothing wrong ]
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[huh]
Or an A/HR?
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[ karkat will keep saying this to everyone because fuck you?? stop being human-centric?? ]
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[Rin is not perturbed by the correction]
Alright. It's not against the rules to talk about good shit, right?
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[ granted, as one of the last surviving trolls until they can (hopefully) restart the race, karkat can probably make all the changes he wants?? this is his house now etc ]
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[and he'll plop back into the blankets, sticking the crab under his head]
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What do you consider non-shitty?
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[shifts, getting comfortable on the crab]
Something you achieved, maybe. Somebody you made happy, or made you happy. Something new and exciting you're looking forward to.
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