[ he wants to argue that of course it can be a person. he isn't really sure if he was in love with terezi or not, since he was younger and, amazingly, more emotional back then than he is now. but she made him happy, even when she started pulling away after they first discovered the humans, and until she pulled away completely when she very suddenly rekindled her relationship with vriska.
he still has no idea how to feel about that, honestly. and dave is the one who made him get over that hurt. and, okay, perhaps karkat watches and reads way too much romantic media and that is kind of fucking up his opinions here? when you spend hours doing nothing but absorbing stories that tells you romantic love is the be all and end all of everything, it sort of makes you believe in it a little? or a lot.
the problem is, karkat spent almost his entire life trying to fit into the alternian picture when he is, really, not a very good troll by troll standards. and then he was thrown into the game, where his primary focus was beating it. and then, then when he finally had real time for himself, on the three year trip on the meteor, karkat was basically attached to dave's hip for the entire ride.
so. trying to figure this out now, on his own, is a little troubling. ]
You're actually a great leader. I can tell just by getting bossed around by you all the time.
[his insistence is -- really touching, especially in a place where his team isn't; where his capabilities are so limited, in comparison to everyone else]
I'm glad you were able to get over your shit? Or... are getting over it, since honestly I doubt anyone will ever be able to completely get over whatever level of nonsense that keeps them up at night. Although it is a little weird to me since I can imagine you being the captain of a sportsball team pretty easily?
Captain of the swim team. Competitive swim team, if you want to get technical.
[there are a lot of things Rin is not over; there are many he's working on; there are some, he has in fact gotten over. he'd like to see that happen with Karkat -- Rin's always interested in progress, not standstill]
What about you? Where are you gonna start, you think?
[Rin hums in acknowledgment, and pulls back hard on his own expectations. he's always trying to push things along; Karkat's feelings aren't something he can push. he wants to help and encourage his friend, not rush or scare him]
[to that end]
-- Do you have an idea of whether you wanna eat dinner together? We can keep talking.
If it's okay, I think I'm just going to go to bed.
[ he has actually been attempting to fix his sleep schedule? it is still awful, but he is trying to turn it from "stay up for several days until i pass out" into "this still isn't a normal schedule but it is less likely to fucking kill me" ]
[that won't stop Rin from sending over Pele with his first pass at piroshkis; meat and spices stuffed inside hot bread buns, something warm and comforting to keep Karkat from waking up starving. before Karkat can properly hit the bed, she'll pull them out of her backpack with a soft, tinny trumpet for attention, followed by the projection she tends to use when emoting about Rin -- a light-brite pinpoint of some pointy jaws grinning, talking mutely, woh woh woh]
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he still has no idea how to feel about that, honestly. and dave is the one who made him get over that hurt. and, okay, perhaps karkat watches and reads way too much romantic media and that is kind of fucking up his opinions here? when you spend hours doing nothing but absorbing stories that tells you romantic love is the be all and end all of everything, it sort of makes you believe in it a little? or a lot.
the problem is, karkat spent almost his entire life trying to fit into the alternian picture when he is, really, not a very good troll by troll standards. and then he was thrown into the game, where his primary focus was beating it. and then, then when he finally had real time for himself, on the three year trip on the meteor, karkat was basically attached to dave's hip for the entire ride.
so. trying to figure this out now, on his own, is a little troubling. ]
You're actually a great leader. I can tell just by getting bossed around by you all the time.
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Thanks. I like bossing you around -- that makes me happy, too.
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[ says the guy who also enjoys bossing people around ]
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[a little amused, still, because frankly Karkat is bossier than he is]
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[ that part isn't deflecting, at least. he's being genuine here. ]
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You're a good friend.
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[ don't compliment him wow ]
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Still waiting on a response to my very personal confession...
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[ hmmm ]
Sportsswim?
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Captain of the swim team. Competitive swim team, if you want to get technical.
[there are a lot of things Rin is not over; there are many he's working on; there are some, he has in fact gotten over. he'd like to see that happen with Karkat -- Rin's always interested in progress, not standstill]
What about you? Where are you gonna start, you think?
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I don't know? I mean, I didn't know five minutes ago so I'm not going to have a sudden idea now.
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[to that end]
-- Do you have an idea of whether you wanna eat dinner together? We can keep talking.
[if it helps]
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[ he has actually been attempting to fix his sleep schedule? it is still awful, but he is trying to turn it from "stay up for several days until i pass out" into "this still isn't a normal schedule but it is less likely to fucking kill me" ]
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[that won't stop Rin from sending over Pele with his first pass at piroshkis; meat and spices stuffed inside hot bread buns, something warm and comforting to keep Karkat from waking up starving. before Karkat can properly hit the bed, she'll pull them out of her backpack with a soft, tinny trumpet for attention, followed by the projection she tends to use when emoting about Rin -- a light-brite pinpoint of some pointy jaws grinning, talking mutely, woh woh woh]
[but until then, Rin'll keep it to;]
Rest up. See you tomorrow, Karkat.