[Jake smiles, bashful.] Well, courting was my idea. But most of the dates have been his. To, um, quote something he said on our last date, "In the most achingly sincere manner, so genuine and devoted that it is itself a rich source of ironic humour, I'm doing this for you."
[ it's cute how jake assumes that dave and karkat's relationship is anything other than one of them accidentally saying something embarrassing and then they both freak out over it until they reach some sort of conclusion. ]
Uh... we... didn't? Dave just kind of accidentally confessed to me like the idiot that he is and we started dating since [ he basically mumbles this part which shows how embarrassed he is to admit it, since he's normally very loud ] I liked him back.
I don't know if it's that easy for us. We're having an awful lot of fun and I absolutely fancy him more than ever, I think that's mutual, but... I think we're both still scared of bumbling it all up again? I know I am.
No matter how much you prepare for it the two of you are still going to fuck up though. I don't mean that in a "you're doomed and can never be in a relationship" way. Dave and I fuck up all the time, I'm surprised he hasn't du-- any-fucking-way. I don't want you to start dating and then the first time something bad happens that you have an aneurysm and conclude that you rushed into it and weren't ready?
[With a sheepish smile, he rubs the back of his head.]
Well... you're not wrong to worry about it. We haven't had a fight yet. I snapped at him, uh, twice? Since arriving here. And I felt awful both times. Even if we did quarrel now, I might just blame myself regardless of who was at fault. That's part of why we can't date yet though. I'm not very healthy.
Just don't beat yourself too much if you don't solve all your problems. I mean, I'm pretty fucked up and that probably won't change any time soon? So. It's good that you want to figure yourself out first but just don't think you have to make sure absolutely everything is amazing before you go onto the next step.
I mean it! I find you admirable. Of course you aren't perfect, no one is, but despite that, you don't let it stop you from having what you want and enjoying your life.
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number two.... there is no number two, the first thing is just so ugh. ]
How are you going to know when you're ready to move on from the courting stage to the dating stage anyway?
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I... don't really know. I think we'll just know? How did you know you were ready?
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Uh... we... didn't? Dave just kind of accidentally confessed to me like the idiot that he is and we started dating since [ he basically mumbles this part which shows how embarrassed he is to admit it, since he's normally very loud ] I liked him back.
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[He sits down on the edge of his bed.]
I don't know if it's that easy for us. We're having an awful lot of fun and I absolutely fancy him more than ever, I think that's mutual, but... I think we're both still scared of bumbling it all up again? I know I am.
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No matter how much you prepare for it the two of you are still going to fuck up though. I don't mean that in a "you're doomed and can never be in a relationship" way. Dave and I fuck up all the time, I'm surprised he hasn't du-- any-fucking-way. I don't want you to start dating and then the first time something bad happens that you have an aneurysm and conclude that you rushed into it and weren't ready?
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Well... you're not wrong to worry about it. We haven't had a fight yet. I snapped at him, uh, twice? Since arriving here. And I felt awful both times. Even if we did quarrel now, I might just blame myself regardless of who was at fault. That's part of why we can't date yet though. I'm not very healthy.
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[ it sounds like a joke! (it's not a joke) ]
Just don't beat yourself too much if you don't solve all your problems. I mean, I'm pretty fucked up and that probably won't change any time soon? So. It's good that you want to figure yourself out first but just don't think you have to make sure absolutely everything is amazing before you go onto the next step.
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You're the greatest chum a fella could ask for, Karkat. I guess I really am just that scared of fucking up. Maybe I need to be more like you.
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[ no one wants to be more like karkat..... ]
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I mean it! I find you admirable. Of course you aren't perfect, no one is, but despite that, you don't let it stop you from having what you want and enjoying your life.
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[ that also sounds like a joke (it's not a joke) ]
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[That time he knows Karkat isn't joking. Jake puts his hands in his lap.]
Oh! This must be a ball for you. Sure, it's not what we were aiming for but it's a nice break. You're even making lots of friends.
[Look they don't have to die repeatedly in a stupid game that's a break.]
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[ karkat is still kind of waiting for the people who do like him to realize he is shitty and ditch him? ]
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[He is honestly curious. Who knows he doesn't.]
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I just think that people are more likely going to like someone like you than me.
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People only think they like me because I act in a manner specifically so people like me. I think people like you because you don't pull your punches.
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[ he just. gestures at jake. ] And you're all... Jakey.
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[Though he doesn't know what Jakey means.]
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[ the most important piece of information that was said. ]
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give him a moment. ]
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Jesus H Christmas you make the cutest faces when someone compliments you.
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Jake English you are the actual dictionary definition of a fucking menace.
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