[ casual is good. it makes her feel a little safer. karkat has that effect on her; maybe it's the fact he never judges. or judges in the right way, at least. ]
Heh. I think my circadian rhythm is all messed up... Then again I don't know what troll circadian rhythms are like to begin with!
We were nocturnal so it was basically switched with humans. And then on the meteor it was always night time, so honestly, who the fuck even knows anymore. Sometimes you just suddenly find yourself asleep and you're not sure how it happened.
[ there was also the point where he just never slept at all, which... well. he Understands, jade. ]
he considers the situation. they're being tested on over there, and jade's the type to just smile when something's wrong so that she wouldn't worry anyone else. ]
It could being worse doesn't stop the current mess from being any less fucked up though.
[ he's not wrong. karkat is the sort who cuts to the heart of the problem instantly, jade is the sort to dance around it. ]
They feed us and will not let any of us die. If I reject food, they make sure I get it in me somehow. They started out with blood panels and some injections. Do you know what time it is?
[ "will not let any of us die" has a different implication than saying none of them have died yet. it's more than a little uncomfortable to think that they're skirting along the edges of being too cruel just to make sure they still have test subjects. a little uncomfortable, but very enraging. ]
If that's what they started with, what are they doing now?
[ most people are likely frustrated with jade over the lack of an answer here. she skirts around it - jay's the only one who wiggled it out of her eventually. ]
It started with extreme cold. I did okay with that one! They had to get me to remove my shoes before it got kind of... anyway. After that was the heat. They did some testing and started to try and figure out the part of my DNA is Bec. I was in a small box for a while... It was dark. And more testing. They gave me something gave me a fever. And shock therapy started today.
[ it's a long list, she realizes. ]
The shock therapy is the hard one. The nausea is bad after it. But I did it a little... while ago, I think. And I am still here!
[ karkat gets an honest answer without much fanfare. he was there when dave died and he was there when jade flipped out on her sprite; he's seen her at her weakest and still planned with her. she can do this. there isn't as much of a desperate attempt to keep strong; karkat can take it if she's being hurt. ]
Well, yes, they have to let us go so they can focus on the next group, I guess. I don't think they want to destroy us. If anything... maybe they want to figure out how to control our magic for themselves.
[ in other words, maybe they're being tested on to figure out how to bring out magical abilities or... something. jade doesn't know but she gets the feeling that if the state had it's way, none of them would be free people again. ]
I think it is during the day and then sometimes through out the night. To be honest, the shock therapy is kind of messing with my memory, so it's a little bit hard to place some things. [ you can hear the :| emoji in her voice. ]
You would think that, after the first few failed goddamn attempts, they would realize that they are wasting everybody's time.
[ there are a lot of concerns here still though. even if they're trying not to kill them, that doesn't mean they still can't do other permanent damage. they definitely need to get them out of there soon. ]
Harley. Are you scared? I can already tell you're pissed, but--
[ there's something to be said about knowing that you're crying, that the other person on the other side knows you might be crying, but he can't confirm it for himself without you saying anything. karkat's been there for jade in many, many fashions through out her life. they might have started out as troll and trollee, but jade knows he's aware of how her face scrunches up when she cries. there's no one else alive who knows that; becquerel used to do everything he could to stop it, and karkat was there to lead her through the situation.
it's fucked up. it's so fucked up and infuriating that there's a level of comfort in this conversation - the only thing jade can't forgive herself for is giving up on herself and letting people down. madoka risked everything for her, and here she is in her cell trying to hide tears. great. ]
I am absolutely pissed off and it is scary! But that does not mean I cannot handle it, I am still doing my best. I can't lose it.
Of course you can handle it. I have never met someone who is more qualified to handle the constant dumpster fires that are thrown onto her exterior turf.
[ that's one thing he never doubted. jade has proven many, many times that she can keep going. she might falter, or get overwhelmed, but she'll eventually get back up.
the problem is that she doesn't tell people about those moments. karkat's somewhat similar in that sense; he complains a lot, and he's loud, and overemotional, but he doesn't often actually sit down and talk about what's really eating at him. it's easier to bring up the symptoms of a problem than the problem itself. ]
[ jade doesn't respond for a moment. it's nice, in the end, that telepathy doesn't allow for karkat to hear the noises she makes. it gives her an upperhand.
a chuckle comes across. ] Hehehe, exterior turf...?
[ he's right, though. jade would say the same to anyone else in this position. ] I wish I was doing more, is all... They will not talk to us. I cannot even try to see what their goal is. It...It is kind of like they are afraid of us?
but, hm. that's an interesting thought. it would... make sense though, considering what shehui is like as a whole. ]
If no one here is allowed to use magic then most people would probably lose their goddamn minds when faced with the real thing, I guess? [ ... ] So that might give us an upperhand.
They already know about mine. I have been using it to try and stop them... [ it just... always seems to make it worse. ] But you are right. Maybe they are losing their minds, Karkat... and that's what this is about. Jay told me a story and it got me thinking, what would you do if magic suddenly was real? You could not use it, but it could be harnessed by other people and used how they wanted.
[ maybe the everlight wasn't going to be used as a weapon, but there had to be magical artifacts that jay's world wanted to use as weapons, right? if they are trying to figure out how to trigger their magic...
maybe, in a manner of speaking, they're the weapons? ]
I definitely wouldn't go and fucking kidnap people to poke around at them.
[ he... thinks he sees where she's going with that though. if you can't use magic, but you found others that can, then as long as you can figure out a way to control those people. ]
Two others. Riza and Ruby. Riza is a military woman and a sharpshoot and Ruby is... a normal girl.
[ magic aside. ]
I think there were twelve people taken, that is including Geir who is a dragon. As far as I know, Geir and I are the only ones who are not entirely human here.
[ he didn't know they weren't all kept together though. granted, that does... make more sense. why have all your captives in the same place, especially captives that you know have powers. ]
So they might focus more on you two than the others.
Most of the beasts on my planet were attempting to eat you, so no, they weren't very common. You'd probably lose a limb trying to shove something into one. Why?
Oh, I'm great. Just a little concerned that my best bro was humannapped by some psychotic scientists. I think carriers might have been involved, but I don't know what gave me that impression.
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[ so, he means, it's fine. he's also trying to sound casual, considering everything. ]
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Heh. I think my circadian rhythm is all messed up... Then again I don't know what troll circadian rhythms are like to begin with!
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[ there was also the point where he just never slept at all, which... well. he Understands, jade. ]
What's it like there?
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Five star resort! Hehehe...
[ a pause. ] No one has died, so it could be a lot worse.
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he considers the situation. they're being tested on over there, and jade's the type to just smile when something's wrong so that she wouldn't worry anyone else. ]
It could being worse doesn't stop the current mess from being any less fucked up though.
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[ he's not wrong. karkat is the sort who cuts to the heart of the problem instantly, jade is the sort to dance around it. ]
They feed us and will not let any of us die. If I reject food, they make sure I get it in me somehow. They started out with blood panels and some injections. Do you know what time it is?
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[ "will not let any of us die" has a different implication than saying none of them have died yet. it's more than a little uncomfortable to think that they're skirting along the edges of being too cruel just to make sure they still have test subjects. a little uncomfortable, but very enraging. ]
If that's what they started with, what are they doing now?
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It started with extreme cold. I did okay with that one! They had to get me to remove my shoes before it got kind of... anyway. After that was the heat. They did some testing and started to try and figure out the part of my DNA is Bec. I was in a small box for a while... It was dark. And more testing. They gave me something gave me a fever. And shock therapy started today.
[ it's a long list, she realizes. ]
The shock therapy is the hard one. The nausea is bad after it. But I did it a little... while ago, I think. And I am still here!
[ karkat gets an honest answer without much fanfare. he was there when dave died and he was there when jade flipped out on her sprite; he's seen her at her weakest and still planned with her. she can do this. there isn't as much of a desperate attempt to keep strong; karkat can take it if she's being hurt. ]
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[ he sounds fairly pissed off, but he usually sounds mad anyway, so that's not something jade isn't already used to. ]
How long do they do all of this for anyway? You said it was a while ago, so-- you get breaks from their villainous fuckery?
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[ in other words, maybe they're being tested on to figure out how to bring out magical abilities or... something. jade doesn't know but she gets the feeling that if the state had it's way, none of them would be free people again. ]
I think it is during the day and then sometimes through out the night. To be honest, the shock therapy is kind of messing with my memory, so it's a little bit hard to place some things. [ you can hear the :| emoji in her voice. ]
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[ there are a lot of concerns here still though. even if they're trying not to kill them, that doesn't mean they still can't do other permanent damage. they definitely need to get them out of there soon. ]
Harley. Are you scared? I can already tell you're pissed, but--
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[ there's something to be said about knowing that you're crying, that the other person on the other side knows you might be crying, but he can't confirm it for himself without you saying anything. karkat's been there for jade in many, many fashions through out her life. they might have started out as troll and trollee, but jade knows he's aware of how her face scrunches up when she cries. there's no one else alive who knows that; becquerel used to do everything he could to stop it, and karkat was there to lead her through the situation.
it's fucked up. it's so fucked up and infuriating that there's a level of comfort in this conversation - the only thing jade can't forgive herself for is giving up on herself and letting people down. madoka risked everything for her, and here she is in her cell trying to hide tears. great. ]
I am absolutely pissed off and it is scary! But that does not mean I cannot handle it, I am still doing my best. I can't lose it.
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[ that's one thing he never doubted. jade has proven many, many times that she can keep going. she might falter, or get overwhelmed, but she'll eventually get back up.
the problem is that she doesn't tell people about those moments. karkat's somewhat similar in that sense; he complains a lot, and he's loud, and overemotional, but he doesn't often actually sit down and talk about what's really eating at him. it's easier to bring up the symptoms of a problem than the problem itself. ]
It's okay to be scared though.
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a chuckle comes across. ] Hehehe, exterior turf...?
[ he's right, though. jade would say the same to anyone else in this position. ] I wish I was doing more, is all... They will not talk to us. I cannot even try to see what their goal is. It...It is kind of like they are afraid of us?
[ ....huh. ]
I wonder if they are afraid of magic?
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[ it's not that obvious.
but, hm. that's an interesting thought. it would... make sense though, considering what shehui is like as a whole. ]
If no one here is allowed to use magic then most people would probably lose their goddamn minds when faced with the real thing, I guess? [ ... ] So that might give us an upperhand.
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They already know about mine. I have been using it to try and stop them... [ it just... always seems to make it worse. ] But you are right. Maybe they are losing their minds, Karkat... and that's what this is about. Jay told me a story and it got me thinking, what would you do if magic suddenly was real? You could not use it, but it could be harnessed by other people and used how they wanted.
[ maybe the everlight wasn't going to be used as a weapon, but there had to be magical artifacts that jay's world wanted to use as weapons, right? if they are trying to figure out how to trigger their magic...
maybe, in a manner of speaking, they're the weapons? ]
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[ he... thinks he sees where she's going with that though. if you can't use magic, but you found others that can, then as long as you can figure out a way to control those people. ]
How many people do you see around there anyway?
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[ magic aside. ]
I think there were twelve people taken, that is including Geir who is a dragon. As far as I know, Geir and I are the only ones who are not entirely human here.
[ she's been thinking about it. ]
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[ he didn't know they weren't all kept together though. granted, that does... make more sense. why have all your captives in the same place, especially captives that you know have powers. ]
So they might focus more on you two than the others.
[ especially geir. he obviously stands out. ]
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Did they have carriers for animals on Alternia?
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Most of the beasts on my planet were attempting to eat you, so no, they weren't very common. You'd probably lose a limb trying to shove something into one. Why?
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Thinking out loud!
Are you okay?
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[ if it were dave who suddenly asked about it, karkat may have let the subject dropped because dave going on off topic tangents isn't that weird.
but he's already aware that jade isn't being as descriptive as she can be about what's going on. ]
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[ and because jade's already trying to avoid worrying anyone - she opts to pretend to assume that karkat is asking why she's changing the subject. ]
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Oh, I'm great. Just a little concerned that my best bro was humannapped by some psychotic scientists. I think carriers might have been involved, but I don't know what gave me that impression.
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